Happily ever after.

2 years already. So long gone, but still a constant memory.

Back in the days.

"Let's go back to when happiness was our pursuit, when trust and love were our foundation. As the sands of time drop from the hourglass of our being, we tend to forget our initial intentions for what we've created. Why can't we learn to embrace our inner child and innocently trust one another without malice? God said to live by faith, hope, and love. But to properly live by those three simple words are almost an impossible feat. How could we love without trust? Why would we trust without love? And how could we hope for something better if you don't have faith in it?

Perfection is so distant from where we're standing. After turning away from the twisted paths we've taken, to uncover the parallels between us would require some backtracking. Maybe we could follow the breadcrumbs back to our blissful beginnings...Amen."

Cause I can't change.

Shit happens. I fucked up.
It's becoming more clear now.

Deep down inside me...

The first day of summer.

Well, yesterday was the first day of summah! School was whatevers, just took a test & watched a movie. & did something in between. Teehhee! No C's this semester! All B's fasho. Left school & I saw my Kuya Loren. Chilled with him for 30 minutes and then went over to Kathleen's. Met Justin, Tina & Andrea at her house and Justin took us to Mr. Lee's. Saw a lot of GHS people there. Afterwords, went to Cerritos Towne Center, saw Joshua Han! & went to Walmart to look at stuff. Then...went to Tina's house so she can pick up stuff and then Justin's house to chill. & shot my first paintball gun! From there, I met Rodrick, Jae, & this other person. Then Jae gave us a ride at 6:30 back to Kathleen's house so she & I can get ready. Went to Quest thinking I can dance so I was in sweats but naah, Kenny was outside with his friends - Ben, Marco, & Aaron who I just met. SO, we just talked a little bit in the parking lot in Kenny's car and I went inside Quest to change clothes. Kenny dropped by his house for a quick minute while I was in the car with his friends. Then went to Huntington Beach! Ahaha, met a few of his friends that were blazing & stuff. At the end there was a jerking session which Josh was a beast in! Ahaha. Left the beach to go to Genki Living. Ate a crepe there while the big boys finished there beer in the backseat. Kenny took me home at 11:30ish, maybe 12 & yomps, my first day of suummah. Great huh?

But I have to get this off my chest. I know that you know. I'm not a good person because of the things I do but you don't understand. You don't understand how hard it was for my best friend to live 15,000+ miles away from you. When you're use to hearing her voice everyday & seeing her everday then waiting months to see her. It really just tore me up, and that's when my perspective change and I realized that I only have one life to live. That's when I started doing the things I do now but you know what? I'm not an addict. I know when I had enough and I know when to stop. Trust, I know where I am going in life and right now, we both know that I just want to have fun. Sorry if I disappoint you...I really am.

This brings me to this. I know what I want in a relationship. I want someone to be there for me, encourage me to be the best person I can be. He should always be understanding in the actions I show as well as trust in the decisions I make. I know I can be a hard headed son of a bitch, but my opinions are always changing if you can make it change. I need a legit man, who can speak his mind and be his complete self around me. He has to have look a certain type for me to be interested in I admit, but aye, it doesn't take a lot to impress me. Encouraging, understanding, commitment, trust, respect, connection. Good typa vibe. I should be able to trust on where he's going and what he's doing and vice versa. But foreals thoe, I'm hella attracted to smokers and drinkers but there priorities have to be straight. There the real one that knows wasuph and know how to keep there shit straight.

Street lights - Kanye West.

That's wassuph.

You know this is for you.

“What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming”

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Unknown

Yes, this is what I want.

Patience. Success. Knowledge. Forgiveness. Happiness. Passion. Fashion.