If you had it once, you can always get it back.: February 2009

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This weekend was hella bomb.com! No freaken joke. I went out with Kenny Friday night. We went to Huntington Beach, just for kicks. Walked around the beach & played twenty questions. Walking in sand barefoot at night feels so numb. Ahaha, it's all good. Afterwards, drove around for two hours from Huntington to Westminster looking for a place to eat. We ended up eatting at Macoronii Grill at Bella Terra in Huntington. Good stuff & then he took me home at 11.

Saturday was valentines day. Too bad I didn't get to see mine! I'm not bitter about it though cause there going to plenty of other times to see each other. Well, I took a nap from 12-3PM. I was super tired from Friday night so I just wanted to kick it at home for a bit. Then I just sat in bed for awhile & got ready. Left the house at 4:30 and went to the Lakewood mall. I went to forever21 & bought a few tops & a dress. Left the mall & went to Kuya's house for his 16th birthday. YAY! So many dancers there, no joke. Tmjrs, beatnicks, Dope kids, Goon squad & Nu Era. Oh deng. Stayed at his house till 12:30AM & went home.

Sunday went to practice in the morning till 12. I left practice & my dad wanted to take side street home. Haha, stopped at a few places and looked around. Afterwards, we got home at 2ish, ate for 10 minutes at home. Then went to the library, left the library at 5ish. Went to school, jogged & walked the track for a bit. Went to the mall to surprise my Kuya Loren before his winter formal. He ended up buying me yogurtland. Hehe, I was so happy. Then left the mall around 7:30ish.

Sometimes.

I feel so worthless. I feel like I'm never enough.

"Can't get enough of you."

Oh God! I've been staying home way too much lately. Well...I think it's cause of the rain. Or maybe I had four days off of school & I feel pretty useless right now. Hopefully next week will be a better week. Hmmhm. Everyday since Friday I've been taking two hour naps during the day & I never can sleep at night :l Blaaah, & it's been raining which is such a kill joy but afterwords, the weather is super super pretty outside. OH & I watched 50 first dates yesterday. It's such a good movie. I don't think I'll ever get tired of that movie. I love Adam Sandelers movies♥

I am human, I make mistakes.

But i don't think I'll ever forgive myself.
Years have passed, and i'm still scarred.

These past two years, there hasn't been a day where I haven't thought of you.
Even more, thought of us being friends again.

I miss you & I know I'm stupid for holding on for so long.
Cause you were the person "that got away."

It's finally hitting me.

I don't plan on forgetting you.
I don't plan on replacing you.

I plan on cherishing our friendship.
Like I said, we are best friends.

This is it...four more days.

“Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you’re a good person and a good friend. What’s meant to be will end up good and what’s not - won’t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you.”