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Where you have you been?
I miss you...update me please.

Love, your best friend.

Ayeee.

Jane...where are you right now? Can you wish me luck that I make this audition tho? & pray for me that I make it...it will really mean a lot to me. Loves you.

Love,
Katrina.

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3 AM exactly, August 14 2009.

I MADE FIRST CUT.

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has To Offer

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

Who I'd like to meet.

Eli Scrubbs.

Allergic.

If I could, I would move as far away as possible from Cerritos.
But still in California boundaries of course. Mira Mesa? West Covina?
Fuck community college, San Diego State here I'm coming!

Shit, I'm down.

Hey you.

You've been my 11:11 wish
for God knows how many times now.

Cause you deserve to be happy.

Happily ever after.

2 years already. So long gone, but still a constant memory.

Back in the days.

"Let's go back to when happiness was our pursuit, when trust and love were our foundation. As the sands of time drop from the hourglass of our being, we tend to forget our initial intentions for what we've created. Why can't we learn to embrace our inner child and innocently trust one another without malice? God said to live by faith, hope, and love. But to properly live by those three simple words are almost an impossible feat. How could we love without trust? Why would we trust without love? And how could we hope for something better if you don't have faith in it?

Perfection is so distant from where we're standing. After turning away from the twisted paths we've taken, to uncover the parallels between us would require some backtracking. Maybe we could follow the breadcrumbs back to our blissful beginnings...Amen."

Cause I can't change.

Shit happens. I fucked up.
It's becoming more clear now.

Deep down inside me...

The first day of summer.

Well, yesterday was the first day of summah! School was whatevers, just took a test & watched a movie. & did something in between. Teehhee! No C's this semester! All B's fasho. Left school & I saw my Kuya Loren. Chilled with him for 30 minutes and then went over to Kathleen's. Met Justin, Tina & Andrea at her house and Justin took us to Mr. Lee's. Saw a lot of GHS people there. Afterwords, went to Cerritos Towne Center, saw Joshua Han! & went to Walmart to look at stuff. Then...went to Tina's house so she can pick up stuff and then Justin's house to chill. & shot my first paintball gun! From there, I met Rodrick, Jae, & this other person. Then Jae gave us a ride at 6:30 back to Kathleen's house so she & I can get ready. Went to Quest thinking I can dance so I was in sweats but naah, Kenny was outside with his friends - Ben, Marco, & Aaron who I just met. SO, we just talked a little bit in the parking lot in Kenny's car and I went inside Quest to change clothes. Kenny dropped by his house for a quick minute while I was in the car with his friends. Then went to Huntington Beach! Ahaha, met a few of his friends that were blazing & stuff. At the end there was a jerking session which Josh was a beast in! Ahaha. Left the beach to go to Genki Living. Ate a crepe there while the big boys finished there beer in the backseat. Kenny took me home at 11:30ish, maybe 12 & yomps, my first day of suummah. Great huh?

But I have to get this off my chest. I know that you know. I'm not a good person because of the things I do but you don't understand. You don't understand how hard it was for my best friend to live 15,000+ miles away from you. When you're use to hearing her voice everyday & seeing her everday then waiting months to see her. It really just tore me up, and that's when my perspective change and I realized that I only have one life to live. That's when I started doing the things I do now but you know what? I'm not an addict. I know when I had enough and I know when to stop. Trust, I know where I am going in life and right now, we both know that I just want to have fun. Sorry if I disappoint you...I really am.

This brings me to this. I know what I want in a relationship. I want someone to be there for me, encourage me to be the best person I can be. He should always be understanding in the actions I show as well as trust in the decisions I make. I know I can be a hard headed son of a bitch, but my opinions are always changing if you can make it change. I need a legit man, who can speak his mind and be his complete self around me. He has to have look a certain type for me to be interested in I admit, but aye, it doesn't take a lot to impress me. Encouraging, understanding, commitment, trust, respect, connection. Good typa vibe. I should be able to trust on where he's going and what he's doing and vice versa. But foreals thoe, I'm hella attracted to smokers and drinkers but there priorities have to be straight. There the real one that knows wasuph and know how to keep there shit straight.