I gotta fight to stay strong.

Yesterday night I fell asleep to Life, Love, Everything by Gabe Bondoc. It brought so much good memories in the past & it helped me fall asleep. Although it means nothing now, I wish I was that happy again. For a month or two, I was as happy as a girl can be. I had everything, or at least I thought I did. Everything happens for a reason but I'm glad that something like that can happen in my life, even if it is for a short period of time.

All my life, I was never handed anything on a silver platter. I always had to save my own money or work my ass off to get what I want. Now that my dad is telling me he's going to buy me a 16GB itouch is kind of strange. Knowing him - all he does is save his money. Never spending a dime unless it's important & always putting a price on my happiness. I offered to split the money with him to buy it, but he got furious & said that "I'm too stubborn" to hear his reasoning. I know I'm stubborn, but your the cause of this. Ever since the time mommy said "You have to watch what you spend," really effected me. You don't even know how much it did. You don't even know what the fuck I'm going through right now & you said you "want me happy?" Well I'm not. I've been exactly the opposite. I'm been stressed out to the max now-a-days. I wish you can see your little girl needs to get the fuck away from here, but that's never going to happen.

Love,
Katrina